Poems from within
BY:
Heather Kinsler
SMASHWORDS EDITION
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Copyright © 2011 by Heather Kinsler
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These are poems I have written and reflected upon, they came from dark places at times. But I hope you enjoy them and can understand where I am coming from:
They say looking into the mirror is another dimension, like another world, when you gaze beyond its complexity you see everything is opposite. Just by holding up your hand is reversed is it also more than just a visual switch. Some where there along the lines, doesn’t change who you are? I wonder so..
He takes her hand as she turns to leave. Silent tears flow down her cheeks. Alone she wonders where he goes. What does he do when she’s not home? He just her but he doesn’t see .the pain she feels, she cannot hide. Emptiness begins to form. He’s closer and closer. But so far away he seems to her eyes. He takes no blame, he leaves her withering again.
Time is disposable, like a camera fully used; Worn out flowers stuck without a bloom, Homelessness across and worldwide. Children underfed. Boys made to men, girls to women, and women and men unwed. Tortured souls without a cause what makes what we are, Is who we have become, in this wretched world. Oh red rose, red rose, where are my sunny days. To the late night I shall whisper a soft word upon my dying bed.
Lover,
Would you lie awake at night listening to the hollow sounds of the moon, the shallow water takes you in, with every step you consume. With a though of horror would you believe I was never here, believe that I am gone? Just live in your dreams I vanish to a far off place. You will never find. To the corner of my mind ill hide from everything, I swear by it. I’ll take an oath and pray that I remain untouchable like the diamonds in the stores you never see. I’ll be gone forever and you will never reach me; Away from you and our love for all eternity. So listen to these words, don’t make me have to leave. Like the diamonds you long for, ill be trapped within your dreams.
Your puppet, your dolly; I’m just your distraction swept away like lost promises. Corrupted in a never land dream. Just intoxication, an overdose fantasy. Are you looking, are you dreaming of me? You are caught so red-handed, but here I am the one damaged. Guilty of the crimes you commit. Your puppet your dolly, pull my strings, lift me up. Show them your tough stuff. Make me dance, make me laugh. Show them what you’re made of. Your puppet your dolly, any price and you can have me. You can look, you can touch. Mess my hair, mess me up, run me down, flip me, use me, rip me open and discard me. I’m ready to come off, fill me in, sell me out. Your puppet your dolly, I’m corrupted by your sin and your lies. Pull my strings, master.
Are you my forever? Are you my escape? When I lay my head on your shoulder will you keep me safe? Am I able to trust your every word, I hope so. I hope every minute were together, that your love grows stronger every time because if you weren’t with me in the end it would be hard for me to die without you by my side. I see us sitting on a front porch hand in hand, in love as we once were. Years have flown by but we have stayed so strong. And when we get to where were we are going, I hope we will be together for the end. Oh I hope so.
Where’s the voices in all these walls inside my head, I’ve seen the beatings. I know whose screaming, it’s me. In all the lies inside my heart, it’s breaking. There is nothing left of me, you leave me, and you know everything that’s wrong. A shattered vase, glass is everywhere. My body’s shaking, all these lies eat away at me like the pages in a book burned. And as ashes I fly away in the wind. My heart’s in tiny pieces on the ground. Blackened roses, dead and ready to bury. Say your goodbyes, give your last cries. For tomorrow is coming and the ones left behind cannot come on this journey? Sinking in despair I am filled with sad memories of loved ones I will never see again, alive. Goodbye, goodbye.
Forced to leave my ground. I held tightly with wounded bounds. All the sorrow that filled the room, as I lay. Tears and love could not keep me here to stay. I was captured told today was not the day, for I was to see, god came to me and said for amongst in heaven I was to be to watch my loved ones, to be side by side only different in the light. Your guardian angel so strong, and true. To be the one that looks over you. To keep you up when you are down, to fill your tears with my loving sound. The pain that fills your soul, I am to guide you to keep you whole. And if you mourn my death I am to remind you of the memories we shared. If the grief consumes you please no that I am near, for I love you and will always be right here. And when your time comes don’t think I am not waiting and watching, because I will be for as long as it takes. I love you, I’m sorry the wait is hard and long, but please don’t miss me too much, for I am with our lord, God.