Life IS Fair
Me to planet
Written by Saleh M. Haidar
Copyright © 2012 Saleh Haidar
All rights reserved.
ISBN-10: 1467999601
ISBN-13: 978-1467999601
About me...
I like to write, every time I feel just writing, nothing else. I got the feeling that I should write. Write, write, write, write, that what goes in my mind when I don't have anything to do. But you know what, I will make this book only about what I write, whatever I want to write, I will post it here in this file...and I hope after a lot of writing, I will find something interesting. I write poetry sometimes, I used to hate it, but I don't know why now I like it. Anyway, I really don't want to make this look like a diary. So am just gonna write anything helpful.
I was born in Yemen, February 1990, but I live in Saudi Arabia. You can call me an Arab if you want. I've always been good in English, however, I took English courses in Malaysia. So be easy on me, I'm not an expert in English writing, anyway, I also attended to the Canadian International Matriculation Program there in Malaysia, but I dropped it. Now, I'm in Jordan and my major is marketing.
However, people think I love my self, but I swear to God am the one who hate me the most. At the same time, people always say” why? Your handsome, tall, smart...” but all this it doesn't mean anything to me, seriously. I care the most about the thing that make me special, not special from any one, just special, something I could share it with people, because this is what mostly I care about, sharing.
I care about the world, but the world doesn't care about me. They don't understand me, every time I express that, they tell me to get a life. Should I be sorry for them, or feel sorry for my self? But I will still be sweet to them, because that is me.
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Chapter one
General ideas
Love
Passion, caring, adoring, sex, satisfaction or we can just say love. What is love? Is there a specific definition for love? I believe not, love is something no one can explain. In fact, love is indefinable, because we all have our own definition for love, and we can’t judge the meaning that others give to the word love. I consider love as a waste of time. It’s hard to find and hard to hold. Am sure when I reach the age of 30, I’ll know exactly what love means and what it takes to deserve it. But right now, am too young to fall in love. It’s freedom, how can I fall in love if I still feel that I am not free yet, love also means responsibility. I can only imagine what love is, as I haven’t been in love. Am talking about love between a man and a woman, not other kind of love. Everyone has experienced some kind of love, best friend, parents, children, people or a country. I want to be sure of my love for a woman. I want to love my neighbors before her, my brother’s wife or my sister’s husband before her, or even my cat before her. Only then, I can be ready for her. Although, I like having a girlfriend, but I prefer to be alone or with my friends than being on a date with a beautiful girl. It doesn’t mean I would always feel this way, it just means that I don’t think that I’m ready for love. I’m having a good time with her and I don’t want her to be away from me. I love her smile, her hair and her lips. Am I in love with her?
Romeo and Juliet
To be open, I feel lonely, my family, my friends, they are always with me, and they are very sweet to me, but I still feel lonely, I don't know if this is wrong. Everything I need is there, I should feel shame about my self because I am not thankful. But I still feel lonely. I think I need a person, a person who ready to be with me at my worst and at my best, a person who can love my soul more than my smile. Only then I can be satisfied, I wont feel lonely anymore, because I'm a person who keep a lot inside him, who do many things behind people, I'm like superman, a superman at night, and a normal guy at day, oh Yeah. But, where is that person, where is that person who really ready to share that with me, I think in this sick world it's hard hard to find. Should I change my self to be like them, a normal guy who doesn't care about anything, ''just live''? No way, I'll never be a guy who is heartless, I'll never live like everything is about money, I'll never live a sick life like mostly everyone else does, but they can't realize that. Most people think, life is all about money, sex, fame, party, fashion, cars, shopping...etc. All this are very selfish wants, if you notice you will find out that the only thing we care about is this kind of things, wow, are we so much blind from other things? Even love, Unfortunately, the love we know is fake, it's Hollywood's hat, it's Romeo and Juliet illusion, sorry if I'm breaking your heart or disappointing you, but this is the complete truth, it is not my opinion or something like it. Because the so called love we know, it's not real love, it's sex satisfaction. If a couple really love each other, why wouldn't they get married, ha? What are they waiting for? Can't they just continue to be together as they already are? Now I know it's not a real love, it's just a Hollywood's hat, it's a sex satisfaction trick. It's a sick world, but I really want to help, I really want to show the world that they are living under Hollywood illusions, Hollywood don't care to send the right message to the public, they only care how to make more money by making up the best stories and making them look so real and logical that we start to think it could happen in our real lives. Do you understand me now when I say” I will never be like them, heartless, money lover and sick internally”. I hope I will find the person who really love me, who really care about me, me as a person, as what I stand for, as me. Not my body, my hair, my muscular arms or my little cute toes, just me. She's there, I am waiting for her, and I hope she's ''really'' waiting for me, I believe she is.
Simple future
When I was young, I had many goals, many goals that I start to think I'm aimless, because I didn't have a particular goal to focus on and direct my self into. Funny, it was too late then, I found out that I'm 18 years old, and I have 6 months break before I go to college, my father told me to choose whatever I want, it has been my choice, he said. When I was a kid, I wanted to be successful, company owner, singer, a movie director and an inventor. So, what can I choose? I've never invented anything, my father isn't rich, I can't own a company. But I had one short movie by me but my family will never be happy about me being a movie director, I know them right, and I used to sing, in fact I had one album, but It was simple, I uploaded it up on the net but never had viewers. I'm in the middle between all this and I have no idea what ahead of me and what the future would turn to be. If you were me, what would you do? I just had chosen to study business because I know how to lead things very well, and unfortunately business is the closest one to that. But, I spent one year in business at college, and I've never made it, I failed in all subjects, I wasn't excited at all, although I was one of the good students in high school. Then, I knew that the only way to fix this, it's to reconsider again, and give myself a break to clearly think again. I had to sit down with my self and tell what's best for me, I wasn't mad or desperate, I was very cooled, maybe I've waisted one year but I still have had the rest of my life. However, one day, I found out that I can be whatever I want, if the institution of the world couldn't give me what I really wanted to be, then screw them. They don't own me, they are not the only people I can rely on, I am a complete free person, I can live without them, I'm a strong man. Plus, I don't have a wife or kids to worry about, just have to worry about my self, come on, I can't even be responsible of my self? Anyway, everyone have something special about him, something he really good at. My advise, be whatever you want, you have a complete freedom of what you want, you just need to have a serious dream, and a serious well. When there is a well there is always a way, this is a low of life, not some luck, it's a low of life. In another word, you decide your future, be optimistic in good things, the good things will come to you, and who said life is not fair? I disagree with him.
Core of bravery
I admire the people who are brave, men or women, brave people has something unique about them, they are smart, have a characteristic and most importantly they have something they believe in, which worth fighting and
dying for. Unlike people who are controlled by fear and they're empty from inside, they have nothing they stand for. To be a complete person, a complete human, you have to have something to stand for and ready to dye for it. If you continue live in fear, you will never reach your goals. All the successful people no matter what they stand for, eventually they got what they wanted. Take Israel for example, they believe in things no one else does, but look what they have done so far to reach their beliefs. All what matters for each person is to have a believe to stand for, and that what makes you a strong person through a strong faith. Only then, you can be fearless, smart, sharp and so brave. You will feel it from inside, you will feel so good that you will never go back to what you were before, no matter what happened to you after, because then you will know the truth, the only truth that our natures and souls are always agree with. When you see brave people, you would want to be like them, intelligent and noticed among others, like me, I used to be a big fan of the joker in the Hollywood's movie''The dark knight: Batman'', it was one of my favorite movies and still. Especially, The joker, he was so genius that made all the city became under his command and he wasn't even a man with a authority, he was just a lonely normal guy who discovered the truth and decided to face it, even if what he stand for was wrong and evil, but he made it 'till the end, and he became unforgettable man, also entered the history. Maybe he dyed physically but he will still alive in our memories, and that's what matter, and this is a small example of many real brave heroes men or woman who entered the history and still alive in our memories. Take a spot on the planet because there are many evil people who believe in things that against your believes, we all are responsible.
Family
Family and dream are different words but have the same meaning. Family is a system, dream as well. I dream to leave my finger print on a rock, not on a sand, because the sand remove everything when the winds come. Unlike the rock. So people won't forget. I don't want to live and die and I didn't do anything special. Special is unique, not something you can touch. As I said, dream is a system, how responsible can I be, how can I plan to achieve it or how to find the keys when I already found the doors. Family is exactly the same. It's a plan and lasting affected strategy. Let me write about my family.
My father, how to start! He's a great man. Good hearted person, he's serious but I always see how pure he is. He just trying to teach us a lesson, nothing else. He knows one day we ill be in our own. He cares too much, so as a man, I agree on being strict sometimes. He has a dream, I don't know if he
accomplished it, he has all what he wanted. But maybe that dream it's so big, my dream it's to accomplish it for him. Because we share the same dream. Me and him, like friends. We listen to each other, we discuss about many things. He's an open minded. He work hard for us, my first man ever.
My mother, oh my mother. They say heaven is under mother's foots. That's true. She's holy to me, I can't imagine my life without her. How can I? She took care of me. She pray for me, do the impossible for me, even fight for me. It's too hard to put her in a second place, she has always been and always will be considered as the first person in each part of my body. She deserve my everything. Yeah, sometimes she's in my nerves, but when she's mad at me is because I did bad. I believe in her, mothers are always right. They are like stars. My mom is my shining star.
My brothers. Headache, problems and always ruin things for me. They snitch, beat and do all bad things to me. Everyone of us has deep secretes from the other, if you tell my parents I'll tell them as well. But all that when were young. Now, we all growing up, understand and help each other. My elder brother is my other hand and we share the same room. My elder sister is my respect and we have many commons. My younger sister is my sweet and we listen to each other. And I in the middle , asking myself, do they love me more than I do?
So I live in a dream. A plan that my parents worked hard for it. I'm dreaming while am inside a dream. It's a good thing to have a family one day, a beautiful wife and lovely children. However, family is an important level. Gathering and caring.
Positive observation
All the world is talking, thinking and behave the same way, what a boring world it is, at least if they do it in a right way. All what they do is wrong, whatever they think is related to money, they want to be famous or married to a wealthy person just because of money, even education, they study and wake up every morning for the rest of their lives hoping one day they will get money and buy things that they don't need, what an empty world it is. I am 21 years old and I still can't get it, and I wont get it because I know it's wrong, like killing a child is wrong. There is other things that we should care about, such as dignity, honer, love, caring and sharing the good moments, this is more beneficial than you can ever imagine, that's what we are for, that's what we should do, it's the only rightful way, this is how to be a useful human, because
if you're not, you will be useless and then used by others. Think about it, everyone will get it cause it's in our nature, why we runaway from it, it's so beautiful, don't be such an idiot and do what you really shouldn't. Don't believe those who so called stars and think they are living a good life, the fact is not, they are the most miserable people on the planet, they don't get married, they do drugs, they call them selves gangster as an excuse for them to cover the weired doings that they usually do front of the camera and they love their fans only because they are where the money comes from. Stop! This is the truth my friend. Many people don't want to waste their times in helping or caring for others, they would probably say'' we have bills and work to worry about, or, I can't even take care of my self to take care of others'', be smart and stop being a tool for the dark goals, you're not living alone in this world. We should talk nicely with each other, think purely and behave right, why all this hatreds with each other, thinking negatively and such a bad attitude? Be a positive.
Happiness
Many and many are unhappy, and very less are, while there is a way to make everyone happy. It's always have been there, but no one can see these days, it's there front of us, it's everywhere. We can see it in the moon at night and we can see it in the sun at day. It's in our nature, between us, in our foods and drinks, it's in our hearts, it's very close to us. But we have chosen another way and ignored it, or we don't remember when we had ignored it, maybe it was a very long time to remember, or maybe we were too young to remember which moment we had decided the other way, the hard way. Since that time, we became unhappy people searching for happiness day after day, we work hard and harder to be so, but we still not happy. Having large houses, fancy cars, own many important lands, but we can't buy happiness. Becoming a famous person, popular in town, promoted in job and becoming more successful in people's eyes, still, there is something missing. Some people had gave up, and denied happiness existence, at least they didn't commit suicide. However, happiness is there, we can't be happy if we don't know how to love, real love, not Romeo and Juliet, I mean a love between you and your mother, your neighbors, your friend and love with everyone in a good way, we can't be happy if we don't stop thinking only for our selves, that's selfishness, we're not alone in this world, we all part of this world. You can't be happy if you don't know how to smile and say thanks, maybe you prefer to be a proud looking person, it's impossible to be proud and happy at the same time, it's impossible. Many people live in a dark side and they don't realize it, they've chosen to be proud than smiley, envious than thankful, greedy than generous, negative than
positive and fear than love, those people had tried and gave up, so they have chosen not to be happy, if you think being not thankful has nothing to do with happiness then that's why you still not happy, and you decide to be happy or not. But, before all this, you can't be happy if you don't know why you are existed in this world, you can't, your heart asking you all the time but you keep ignoring it, until you decide to close the subject, which is why feel empty sometimes. How do you think you can be happy if you don't know the truth and the perfect logic, if you are reading this now and you are not happy, I tell you, you don't know the truth, how would you have a faith in anything if you don't have a foundation of truth, and happiness always comes after faith, build your faith and get ready to be happy. Faith in what? A true faith, faith in yourself, faith that worth fighting and sacrificing for, faith that there is something who love you more than anyone else, faith that you got an incredible ability in this world, faith that there is someone which you the best more than you which it for your self. So it's your choice, it has have been and it will always be, why wouldn't you give it a try.
From a wish to reality
The true wish is always for free, you can't find it in stores or in your bank account, and no one can give it to, maybe life is cruel. If you tell someone to ask whatever he or she wants, and you give three wishes, they would probably want: 1- money, 2- beautiful looking, 3- best wife or husband. Those are not real wishes, they're are things that we can touch, a true wish is something we can't touch, but it's something we can feel. For example, imagine the first day you bought a very nice house, that nice feeling comes only in the first days, but it comes with a true wish everyday and forever, make the first day feeling comes to you everyday, and it doesn't stop there, it gets better and better everyday with one true wish. Think deeply and you will find what you really want, don't believe those fairy tales such as Aladdin and wish things that you don't need, it's on your true self. If everyone want the same things, then that's mean we all are going to have the same exact wishes, imagine we all have huge houses, nice cars and bouts, etc. it will be so boring, and then everyone would want something new and more exciting. In a true wish, it's very rare to have the same wish with others, because we all going to have our unique demands, we all going to see the true essence of life, and life is fair. Why the so much materialism and we can be very simpler, or more complicated, it depends in what you really want. For instant, someone wants to be, a movie director, a painter, a hero, living in the wild, a knight, going to the moon, heaven, help poor people, a leader, married someone you so in love with, become the best sailer or many other wishes, these are some of the examples
but there are so many, I hope you got the idea of a true wish by now. Life is cruel, we have to accept that, but this is the exciting part, we have to face many obstructions to reach our goals, like a soccer game, the other team will do whatever it takes to prevent you to make a goal, but you will score the goal if you have the well, life is exactly the same, life is a game, and only the smart patient one will win, and many people have won. My true wish was to help people and show them what justice really means, I want to show the world that there is still hope, people have gave up on their bosses these days, I wish if I show up to them and give them hope, real hope with a great wining. Now, I am going to face obstructions, and I have no idea what kind of obstructions, I guess this is why they say ''be careful of what you wish for'', but this is what I want. Also, a true wish is not just for fun, it's not going to be only a wish that came true, in fact it's also going to be a duty. Once you realize that, you will know what you could offer to this world and what kind of responsibilities you are holding to, just like others. Only then, you'd find your destiny, congratulation my friend.
Patience
If people have patience today, they would be no problems. In many countries, fear is the ultimate tool to control the people in today's life, in order to have an absolute control and make decisions that people don't agree with. For example, they would recommend you not to go out of your home at night because you could be killed by thieves, other than to tell you to catch them instead, thieves are the most scared people, and it's a shame for us to be scared more than them, that's one example shows how we're fearful. Scientifically, the opposite of fear is love, fear is a negative energy and love is positive. They don't tell you about love and show how love is a good thing, because it could threat them so easily, that's why they ruin anyone's reputation who spread love among people, such as Michael Jackson, by media of course. Love is a powerful tool, but no one knows that because love is so precious and not easy to get, it needs patience. Patience from arrogant people, from the public view of you, from getting physically hurt from others, from stones you receive in your face, from humiliations, even from your own family, because most people are full of fears and they have no idea what love means, so sad. But if you are patient it's not that bad, when you understand the power of love, you will be patient for it, being patient always lead to good things. Although, I am not in a hurry, I will be patient cause love is worth it. So, patience is the only weapon which can destroy the fear inside us, don't depend on therapy sessions, life is simple.
Anyway, you will be having the power of love, forget about money and cars that make you miserable all the time, love can save you, when you see your bills, be patient and optimistic, don't worry. Also, our rights must be always there, if we can't fight for them, that's mean we're still afraid, and that's negative, or in another word, fear. Do you see now how love is powerful, how love can wake you up, how love doesn't lie, how love can make you a strong and a true person. I used to be afraid from some people living in the same neighborhood I live, I tried all the ways to be not to, I hated it so much and I hated my self because I am just nobody and useless, I wanted to be a brave person who doesn't even get scared from death. Then one day, I found out that life is not the way I've known, life is completely something else. I can't explain that to you, the only way for you to understand this is when you know the true meaning of love. However, I've became a brave man who's not afraid from death, and death is not that bad.
Today, Patience to me is something I practice it everyday, and I enjoy it, because it makes me feel so real. People don't want to be patient, they just want to live the easy way, but they don't know they are living the hard way, I live a normal life just like you do and I don't get paranoid when I am broke, I am a very patient person and optimistic that everything is going to be alright then, it always work, it never disappointed me once, ever. This is my power, a power that I only control and can't be stolen. Let's be together, let's share this power with everyone and be one love and use our hearts rather than only our minds.
Wrong truth
Someone said'' other than money, fame, faith, knowledge, and trust, give me truth'' I don't remember who said it, it doesn't matter this now, what matter is what he said, and it's very true. If you don't know truth, then everything else is going to be meaningless, because truth is the answer of everything. The brain is about questions and answers, but if there's a question with no a convincing answer yet, the brain will have an error, then a psychological issues. For example, if you have a laptop, and there is a missing file, a window would pop up mentioning an error, and you can't do anything about it until you get that missing file back. The same thing with the brain of yours, what if you have many questions that have no answers and you still don't know the truth yet, which is supposedly related with every question your brain asks. So, what is truth? Truth is simple, anything that your own mind can prove is truth, anything that makes a complete logic within your self is truth, anything you can touch is truth, at the end, truth is a wide matter. You make your own truth,
but it has to be with a complete logic, prove, and no question without an answer for it. For example, if someone keep dating and dating many women, because he thinks he still couldn't find the one, and if he found her, they would get divorced after sometime, then he had waisted his all time and got disappointed doesn't know what next. All that because he didn't know the truth, which is men insanely love women, he has been dating many women and he got used to it, now when he finally got committed with only one, it turned out he's not satisfied with it, the truth is, if someone want to marry, he or she should not date anyone, or no one, if you think you find her, the one you which to marry, then ask her out, and when you ask her out, ask her from the front door, this is real, and real always combined with truth, only then your possibility of a successful marriage is so higher, don't take women as a pleasure tool, they are more than you think. This is one example of a single truth, and this is how a single truth could ruin an entire life, but these days the truth always treaded as a sided and lifted subject, so petty I feel. Why we get afraid from truth? Why we only do what Hollywood does, Hollywood has never shown us the truth, look now, many people are having such a hard time because of Hollywood's hat. Walk your own path, your own path of logic and understanding, be a true person, or else you will be full of questions that have no answers, in another word, dumb person, it doesn't mean if all are doing the same thing then it's true, it always has been your choice and it will always be. And, truth is not a small matter, it's a huge matter, without it, life has no meaning, not everything you hear from your parents is true, not anything you read it's true, not anything your teacher said it's true. Make your own believes, prove it and share it with others. Listen, then if you believe it learn, then if you know it see, then if you love it feel, then touch it.
Heaven
Hell, you have no idea what hell is like, me either, but I can imagine how harsh it is. I mean, if once someone wash me with a boiling oil in this life, I would wish to die then. So what about hell? No one can runway from it, You can think in anything your mind can imagine of the torturing ways in hell, I think you already have. Of course, people are denying it, or they believing in it but they are not really afraid from it or somehow ignoring the fact of it, and that simply means that they don't believe in it. It's real, it's there waiting to swallow us, most humans since Adam was created are going to hell, let's face it, very few who are working for heaven. However, no one can ever describe heaven, it's beyond our imaginations, because it's beautiful and...I really don't have words which can describe heaven, God told us that no one can even imagine the smallest thing in heaven, and that's good news. People are talking
about hill like it's a funny subject to talk about, in movies, songs and comedy shows, they only mention it as a funny matter. Like, ''go to hell your dumb, burn in hell, see you in hell'' or a TV show called'' hell's kitchen'', as in, you can imagine hell is in that five stars kitchen. This is effect us so much, we grow up with this kind of images and we don't realize how it influence us so much. Now, hell to us is something we just know how to spill, but we don't know what it is, if we do, trust me, the world would be a batter place. But we don't need to focus on the subject of hell, we don't need to be so scared from it, because there is another option we can always talk about and never get bored from it, which is heaven. It's a place with good people only, they're who deserve it, it's so amazing and so great. Heaven has wine but not like the wine in this life, it has fruits but not like the fruits here, it has rivers of drinks, it has huge trees that cover all heaven, it's has shopping malls but not like the malls here, it also has marijuana but not like the marijuana over here, it is heaven man! It has everything and everything you'd want but way better and better than this short life has. Do you really think you were born to die after some years, do you really think there is nothing after that, what a life you are living, please use your mind at least once, this life is made for you just to believe there is another life, the true and the immortal life, this life is to work for heaven not life, it's our rights to live for ever. If you don't want to believe in heaven and hell, then it's up to you, but I am asking you to rethink again my friend, be smart and gain heaven. You can go to heaven or hell, no need to tell you how, it always has been your choice and it will always be, and the universe is so fair.
Country side
To be fully enjoying this life, country side is a matter you shouldn't underestimate or be critical about. This life is full of different people, we can't expect that we all the same, there are many various cultures out there, and it's so nice to communicate with them and experience their lives. Many people have some views that they can't even tell you why exactly, they just hate the country side because somehow they think they're missing the good part of life, I don't actually see what good part they're missing, never simply say things that you have no idea about it, and don't say you saw it on TV, I hate this excuse. However, we were born in different shapes, skin colors and different attitudes, because this is life, like marriage is part of life. It doesn't mean there is something different, we all the same guys, their blood is not green, they are not Aliens or something, they are human just like you and me. some see black people as gangsters, blond woman as prostitutes, Latin as thieves, Asian as PC freaks and Arab as terrorists. Where did you came with this ideas? Who
taught you to think like this? All what I can say, get a real life my friend, travel the world and see by your self. who knows, maybe your not coming back, because you'd love that place and would like to spend the rest of your life there, like many others have. Many people share their opinions about something that they haven't experienced it yet, if you want to say your opinion about something, be certain about it, or stay calm. Maybe you hate me, but I sure you when you see me you would love me, I am not trying to be so full of my self and I am not a country man, but I always come with a good intent and love, I've never hate someone, I never fear someone, I only judge when I see the results of someone's work. Michael Jackson for example, all what he had done was for the people, he wanted to heal the world through his songs, not like artists today, he donated most his money for poor children, he wanted to spread love because he knew we are controlled by fear, shame on you the public who turned against him, how could you possibly ever believed that he had abused a child, judge by the results, he loved his fans and he wanted to share his unique talents with them, I am his biggest fan, and by the way, the boy who accused Micheal has admitted that he never been abused from him. So, we misunderstand people, everything we see, everything we know is the opposite of reality, sometimes I think the world has became upside down in the last century. The world is beautiful, let's be united, one love, one hand, our shoulders are connecting to one another, this is how it should be. It's Okay, you can dislike a black person if you see him not a good person, you can dislike an Arab if you see him disrespecting, you can dislike a white person if you see him robbing, you can dislike an Asian if you see him not thankful, you can dislike anyone, but as a person. At the same time, you can fully trust anyone, no matter where he's from, and that's where fun comes from.
Change your professor
I remember once, a wise man said'' there are three certain things in life: birth, death and change''. I am still trying to find other things but I couldn't. What is life? I'm young to answer this, but I'm sure everyone is distend for something. It's impossible if we think everything is going on simply randomly, or because it's just a matter of coincidences. There must be something organizes us, whether it's God, code or whatever. Think about it, how many time you thought about it, even if you totally aren't a believer. Of course, who cares? I don't care actually but I conceder it at least. Sometimes, we have to know what we should care and what we shouldn't, life is not for fun, it's more than you imagine. In this life, we have to know that there are angels, demons(devils), jinns and us(humans) yeah, simple it is. If we don't believe in those things, everything is going to be anonymous and confusing to us, like today's life. If
someone doesn't believe in angels or devils, he will never get better even with Dr. Phil. Why people always see things more complicated, psychological issues to me are spiritual issues, those people who go to therapies once or twice a week are spiritually broken. Scientifically, human are meant to worship something, anything, it is dangerous for their health if they stop worshiping. Moreover, people who worship demons are much stable than the people who doesn't worship anything, why do you think the ancient times were worshiping weird Gods, such as, trees and animals. Do you understand why sometimes there is something missing, even if you have everything in the world. However, be a wise person and stop thinking everything can be computerized. At least, worship a stone, use your worshiping tool or else you will be a close friend with your therapy doctors, it's your choice. You can always change, it is not hard at all, it is like you shifting to another house. Change from careless to caring, from disbeliever to believer, from sadness to happiness, from loneliness to social, from rudeness to thankful, don't be afraid from change, it's good mostly. Even if you have reached the highest levels of knowledge, it doesn't mean you're smarter than me, maybe you're good in math, but if I ask you the easiest question about history, you wouldn't answer me, in what exactly you're smarter than me, or anyone, we all good in different objects, and that's a life balance. So, there is nothing such as smarter, we all smarts, but in different directions, choose the right direction for you and don't be afraid. I understand, sometimes you just want to satisfy your parents or the society you in, don't worry, you can always find a way to do your own lovely skills behind them, it's not a bad thing to do it, at the end you're going to be an independent person, 'till then, make things become easier for you. Remember, professors are rarely smarter than their students.
Be somebody
No worries, everything is going to be alright, if you want to be sad everyday, then when are you going to be happy? You're gorgeous just the way are, you're not nobody. Many live in this life thinking they are not worthing a single thing on this planet, why exactly? Because you don't have nice cares like your friends, you're not beautiful, you're fat, not good in class, don't have a nice job, or you have everything but you still feel nobody. No my friend, thinking like this way is wrong and never helps, you must know who you really are, what you are as a person among your friends and how could you be useful to your society, this is what is all about. The TV is illusion you that you're nobody, that you have issues, even if you don't have anything wrong about you. So first step to be somebody, you have to stop believing anything that TV tells you, this is to keep you save. Second step, know your talents and what you want,
and don't tell me you want to be like Kayne west, rich and famous. Third step, be brave to defend your values in the society, if people doesn't accept you as the way you are, then be confident and face them, people always can be wrong, but don't hate them, hate only the things they do, it's important to be always in love. Fourth step, when you become a complete person, spread your experience and knowledge to others who might have the same issues you had, people like stories. Final step, change the world. After, I don't need to tell you what to do, you already a complete strong person, but one thing, keep the faith. Only then, you'll discover the little beautiful things that you've missed, it's like you woke up from a long bad dream. But, it's always been your choice, if you think it's hard to do or impossible, you would fall into the wrong path again. Fight, for your believes and rights, fight, to rise the truth and destroy the lies you were in before, and don't make death become your fear in this life, you simply can't runaway from death, because it has been ahead of you since the day you were born.
Childish Honesty
What a beautiful word it is, honesty, if there is a flower named after it, or a girl named after honesty, I would marry her, because she would always remind me of the word honesty everyday. I used to lie a lot, I mean, sometimes you want from others to see you in the way you want, but I found out it's impossible, I couldn't, eventually they decide who I am, I can't change it by anyhow, cause it's out of my control. So, why bother, just be honest with people when they ask you a question you don't like, you can always tell them in a way that doesn't hurt you or them, and truthful at the same time, a lie is such a bad habit to do, even if you do it once or twice. For instant, someone asked you if you do have a car licenses or not, you don't have so you would answer him ''actually I am thinking to get it someday soon'' which is true, I don't have a car licenses but I always think when I would get it soon, even if I didn't get it soon, I would still thinking of getting it sooner enough. Or , you don't have to say it the same way that asker want you to, you just give him a small answer to close the subject, or go around the subject until he or she would understand that you don't want to answer, and people always respect that. Simple, I don't know why some people today don't know how to do it, especially men, women mostly know this kind of conversation, they're professionals. It's good to be with woman sometimes, so you can learn from them how to talk with others, most man don't know how to talk and they get someone hurt without realizing it, and I encourage marriage. After all, being honest is like letting out, we all know how lying at people never makes us feel better and never make the problem become better, so imagine what honesty
could make you feel, it feels simply amazing, people would like you for the person you are, not the person you made up, learn how to be honest and how to hate lying. Moreover, it removes the fear inside you, because lying makes us feel worried all the time, but honesty make us love to face problem, I never lied, so why would I be worried? The person who lies a lot is not a good company to be with, he or she could be against you anytime. The ones who usually lie, will never stay beside you in your worst times, but you can advice them not to lie, but if he or she still lying, why exactly you're waisting your time with him or her?
Reading history
I love history, where all the good stories and lessons come from, when I hear something about history, I get so excited, it's a very useful way to learn from the mistakes that our people before us had done. Don't underestimate the nations before us, they weren't ignorant and stupid, maybe they didn't have technology, but they were more aware than us today. There was no materialistic media to wash their brains, jobs wasn't the main way to gain money, everyone can have his own way to feed him self and his family, they were truly free men, woman were more respected than today, the only commitment was to protect the city, life before was much better than today's life. Today, there is technology but no values, there are jobs but half of our income goes to the government. Even the water, we have to go to the market to drink water. Woman are becoming a toy to men, I am a man and I know how men see women these days. We're living the most developed age in the most ignorant society at the same time, there is something wrong. However, history shows what men and woman should become, of course there are some bad stories show how history was cruel, but it's like today, where much violence happens. Anyway, it's not a matter, what matter is how they were living, how they were thinking, what they stand for, what they fought for, what kind of values they had, this is what matters. I would never knew the real meaning of freedom if I haven't read about history, it taught me how to be brave, truthful, helpful, honest, smiley, fearless, careful, generous, loved, predictor and how to understand others. So, reading is the best way to gain power, the power of knowledge is the mother of powers. Read about anything, not only about history, give half of your reading to your interests and the other half for your general knowledge, it's entertaining. I know how you feel about reading, but it's only in the first two to three books, then you would see reading like dancing front of the mirror, reading is not for old people or nerds, it is really fun, in fact, it is more enjoyable than watching a movie. Reading is cool.
Vampires
I am a vampire, I hate humans but I love their bloods, I am immortal and a very close friend to Satan, I am a devil somehow, my food is only humans blood, there is no such as a good vampire, we all evil, we fight good. This is their nature, why we see them in a good way? I am not trying to be a one sided person, but I don't get it. We fall in love with them, we become friends with them, we even have sex with them. Alright, maybe there is something wrong, or there is a good vampire, maybe a vegetarian one? Do you have any idea what are you talking about? Not only this, we also sacrifice for them, we wish to become like them, vampires. It's so sick, why wouldn't they want to be like us, human beings. Anyway, vampires are cool, they're usually handsome, and they're immortal creatures. Don't act like you know them, 'cause you don't, they're simply demons. Try to stop thinking they're good sometimes. What if I ask you to come with me to a dangerous neighborhood at night, and you know there is some good people living there that won't harm you, would you risk and come with me? The neighborhood is nothing compared to their world. I am not saying there are vampires living with us, but there are means and symbols, and they symbolizes the darkness, am I right? Nothing is a joke, everything reflect everything in this world, aren't they symbolizes demons? They're almost the same and I don't think it's a good way to teach our kids to be humble with them. You must believe there are demons who devote their times to destroy us emotionally and eventually to hill, life is more than you imagine my friend, it's not only you who live in this planet, I guess you already know this. So, we should be together or we all going to loose, don't full your self that you're going to make it among all of us, share your talents with others, give your best for others, beginning with your family. Anyhow, people are getting fooled by the vampires, that they are romantic and sexy, get real and have a better imagination of life, a wonderful one. Trust me, life is more fantastical than Hollywood's movies, the only way to get that life is to leave every useless thing you hold onto and start to have a faith in your self, stop loving your car so much, stop being a slave to money, if you still want to hang on with these kind of things, you will stay behind. Let's teach our kids the best.
Doors
Life is about options and choices, you're simply the architect of your own life, but at the same time so weak you are, higher people can scare you and control you, so we do according to their decisions. It's normal, there must be a
government who make decisions and a public to follow, as long as it's fair for everyone and the public agree with it, it's okay. At the same time, anyone has an absolute freedom as long as he or she didn't across the line, you can choose to be whatever you want, if you feel for one second that your rights are been taken without you notice, stand up, it's your right to do that anyway. What I am trying to reach is, you have many doors to go in, but don't choose one door for your self, this could cover the truth from your eyes, you have to go inside many doors, and leave many others. The new generation we see is one door generation, which is the party, fame, sex, video games and the latest fashion, this is only what they know, if you ask them the simplest questions on earth, they would be like''aaaah!'', we have to see other doors and be curious of what inside them, life becomes very boring when we stick with one door only, be a various person, be unique, the door that you don't like, close it, there are many other wonderful doors, it's like leaving the darkness and having only light. Also, knowledge is power, how could you beat someone if you don't have enough knowledge about anything, it's not hard, you don't have to do memorizing all day to gain knowledge, you just read about what you're interested in, and general knowledge which don't need books, such as newspaper, magazine, some documentary movies, and all this your mind will automatically memorize it, it's like a movie you loved so much that you will never forget the ending. Moreover, door is not only getting knowledge, but also more values, which is more important than everything. Doors are options, options are choices, choices are many, many can be bad or good, you choose, between fear or love, generosity or over carefulness, bravery or scarcity, justice or injustice, it has been your choice, all what you have to do is to find the keys for these doors, and life will eventually become between your hands, not anymore at your heart.
True enemy
One time, a very smart friend told me that there is no such as enemies in our world, we all one, we don't have to be against each other, we don't have the right to judge people by making them our enemy, is that right? I told him one sentence'' a successful man can't be successful if he doesn't have enemies'', enemy prove your side, enemy make you have the honer, enemy can be the reason why you were born, enemy is a way to wake you up. If there is no enemies, how all this massive of disasters happening in our world, war is everywhere, children are dying, many woman were raped, how come no such as enemies in our world? If they see us as their enemy, we shell see them as our enemy as well. Your naughty neighbor is not your enemy, your bad brother is not your enemy, your ex-wife is not your enemy, these are too little
for a big word like enemy. Enemy can be your family murderer, your society destroyer, your civilization breaker, and of course the devil. Only then, you can have an enemy, if you're living in justice and fairness, thank God for that, no need to create an enemy for you. In the other hand, the world has had enough from the wickedness and wickedness and wickedness, it's burning me inside when I see children getting killed and I can't do anything about it, it's making me feel so sad when people are ignoring it, like it's not their business or maybe they're busy trying to stay in their offices as long as they can get by anyhow. My enemy who spread wickedness, my enemy who take and never give, my enemy who steal our rights, my enemy who love to see us fighting rather than uniting. No way, if there is a reason why I was born, I would devote it in bringing justice, for everyone. I live in a secured county, but the people are so lost, they are running after the luxury life, so they all blind don't know what is happening around them, even if they know, they are full of silly excuses. I can just continue my life and act like one of them, as in, nothing is happening, I have all what they have, I can simply be like them, but this is not me, this is not real, it is only fake, it is only fear, it's so selfish I see, it's so shameful I believe. I lived like that before, and I got nothing, no ambition and no purpose at all. Now, I am following my dream, I am walking on it, I've never felt that way before, I've never felt as much as happy in my whole life, it's really sad when I see the most are missing it. I gained love, I gained happiness, I gained trust, I gained true fans, I gained admires from many, I gained the best things in life, that can't be touched and can't be found in stores. What a materialistic world we're living! No one can buy happiness, but don't worry, in this book, you will find truth and happiness, I promise you that if you'll keep your mind open.
Bad hope
Hope, what is hope exactly? Hope is really hard to gain, it's a weapon, it's positive, it can't be negative, it comes after love and faith, and it can't be with fear and hate, who ever have hope, he's happy, but a real hope that is. I hope in this page, you will understand the real meaning of the word hope and then spread it to whom are hopeless. There are three levels of hopes.
First level, the lower hope, which is very simple and it doesn't effect your regular life so much. For example, you've been working in a company for many years hoping that you will be the CEO one day, but it doesn't effect your work, if someone else who has no experience like you has become a CEO , you will forget about it in days and continue your work but still hoping, at least. This kind of hope is unnoticeable, you can't see it in others, they would have this hope but never mention it clearly. Most people have this kind of
hope, but they fall very quickly, then they become hopeless, and it's very dangerous to be hopeless, it breaks us down to pieces.
Second one, the middle hope, which requires confidence and a little work from you heart to reach your goal. It's noticeable, you can see it mostly in others, who work a lot to reach their goals, and no matter how badly it turned eventually, they would study the mistakes they have done, then they will try again with a different way and different rules. It's smart, because who failed and try again with the same way is naive. You never fail if you do it right, you only fail if there is something missing, and failing is a regular thing to happen, without failing we can't be able to learn. Don't ever be so weak and give up, so foolish it would be. If you draw your way very clearly without no mistakes, you would definitely reach your goal, no matter how huge it is, be smart and do it step by step.
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